Saturday, December 29, 2007

Another cruel joke on me

First beta = 21.

For those of you unaware of what that means, let me put it to you this way...I AM pregnant, but the chance of this working out is less than slim to none.

WHY couldn't it just be a negative number (less than 5) so they could tell me to go off the meds so I could get my period? WHY must I be tortured like this?

I'm out of tears. Seriously, I think I used them all up between yesterday and today. I'd be shocked if I had more in me. My eyes and face are beyond swollen.

So now, instead of getting loaded like I was hoping I'd be able to do this weekend, I have to continue my drugs, and go in for the second beta on Monday.

The evil 2007 gods are really stretching this out until the LAST POSSIBLE DAY. What a way to ring in the new year, huh...

14 comments:

CRS said...

Melissa, I keep hoping and hoping for you. I even had a dream about you the other day. I'll raise my champagne glass that 2008 will be a great one for you!
-smallbutfeisty

Ali & Dave said...

Melissa,
I'm so sorry you've had such a tough year. 2008 can only get better. Keep your chin up!
Ali
Dec2005bride

Liz said...

Melissa, I am so sorry!!! I'm sending you & Frank huge virtual hugs.

Anonymous said...

Melissa
I am so sorry. Sending you and Frank hugs. Hear is sending you big cheers for a great 2008.

nicole(mikeandnicole05)

Anonymous said...

Hi Melissa,

I am sorry to hear about your struggles...but keep the faith, with enough science you will eventually get your baby.

Josephine723

Gillian said...

Oh god Melissa.. I was so hoping to hear happy news from you when we got back from Florida. I am so very sorry.. let's just get 2007 OUT the freaking door.. come on 2008, give us a BREAK!!!!

((hugs)) to you and Frank.. I know this is wreaking havoc on you..

Janine said...

I'm so sorry to hear that this didn't work out. I guess it is just keeping with how sucky 2007 has been for you guys. Hopin and praying for a MUCH BETTER 2008!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Melissa,
I'm so sorry. It's been such a tough year for you guys. Lots of hugs and vibes coming your way! I hope 2008 is your year.
Andrea (TiredAn)

Sonia - beachbrat said...

Sending tons of prayers to you and Frank.

Kris2322 said...

I'm so sorry, Melissa. What a crappy year you've had. Here's to wishing you a fantastic 2008.
HUGS!!
Kristin
Kris2322

Anonymous said...

Melissa, I am really hoping and praying for you! You and Frank are ALWAYS in my thoughts.

Jessica
(Dibsgirl)

Anonymous said...

Melissa,

I am so sorry you are going through this. I recently started following your blog. You and Frank are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that 2008 will be YOUR year! Hang in there!

Christine
krissi105

jamie said...

Sending you tons of vibes for you and Frank!!! Hopeing 2008 is a better year for all of us!!!

Jamie

Karen said...

Hi Melissa, I am so sorry you keep having to go through this torture. I will be drinking for a BFP in your future tonight. Take care of yourself.

Karen