Wednesday, November 14, 2007

"...always look on the briiiight side of life..."

Who sings that stupid song anyway?

I'm trying. I really am. It's just so damn HARD. Especially when you're constantly surrounded with reminders.

Like, for instance, three shows that I watch (um, yeah, I guess I watch a little too much should see our Tivo season pass list) had characters who had miscarriages...ALL LAST WEEK. Same week as me. I haven't cried that hard infront of the TV since...well, I guess since the week before that (everything makes me cry these days). But you know what I mean.

Let's not even get into the reminders that occur on a daily basis everywhere I go. Babies and pregnant women are EVERYWHERE. And even when they're not around, people are talking about them...who's pregnant, who just had a baby, how wonderful is my baby, my baby is SO smart and SO cute, my baby went pee pee on the potty...

Plus, our house could be mistaken for a crack den...we've got more needles, syringes and drugs than I know what to do with.

There's no escaping. And speaking of escaping, trying to book a vacation has become virtually impossible. WE NEED ONE....badly. Ugh.

OK, I feel a little better.

Thanks to all of you who have supported us during this struggle (you know who you are). Your kind words and listening ears (and knowing not to say "just relax, it'll happen" or "drink a lot of wine") have been very helpful with easing the pain a bit.

And yes, I still like hearing about your kids...I'd just prefer some adult conversation to go along with it :)

I'm slowly making my way to the bright side...


Adrienne said...

I have to admit, I'm one of the ones that will constantly talk about my daughter. Not because I'm trying to be insensitive, but sometimes I just don't know when to shut up. It's actually good for me to hear you say that you don't always want to talk about my child all the time and you're absolutely right.

I continue to be amazed by your strength and I really do hope and pray that you have what your heart desires very soon.

Mazzy said...

Thank you for sharing your blog. I am always praying for you and sending you fertility vibes. Maybe I should try harder with those vibes. Hope that made you smile.

Keep positive and love that wonderful husband of yours!

Rissa06 said...

Thank you for sharing your blog. My SIL and BIL are going through the same thing and my parents went through a similar situation when they had me in the 1970s ( but i think with a little less technology). I can't say that I understand what you are going through, but I can say that I hope that everything works out for you and Frank.
If you need anything, please let me know!!! I'm a good listener!

marree27 said...

Thank you for sharing this. Your a strong brave woman and it is very admirable. You have a great marriage and you and Frank are a team, you have eachother which in and of itself is fantastic.

Hang in there, stay strong, stay positive. If you need an ear, I got two for ya :)